...trust?

Trust is a noun that means....reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

Trust is an important part of everyone's everyday life...we all trust that the Lord will allow us to see another day whn we go 2 sleep...we all trust that those that we love and care about will feel da same way about us...

But what about when they dont??....

I met a girl like dat once in my life! She has trouble not only trusting ppl but simply believing the simple things that people tell em....da person that made them this way is steadily in and out of that person's life...he is there long enough to make it seem as if things cud be ok again and he makes it seem as if he is there for for her again again...he tells her all of the things that made her head over heels in the first place...but as soon as she begins to get comfortable and thinks that shyt aint bad as it seems...he does that thing that hurts her all over again and she is back to not trusting the next man...he takes her heart and does with it as he pleases he seeks control of her and the whole time she is strung alone made to believe that he really cares and she even begins to like bein treated in this way...she finds herself not liking ppl that look to plz her and treat her the way she shud b treated...her trust is shot and it lives with him....a fuckd up situation that is almost impossible to escape so she simply accepts it and though she doesnt realize...forgets to live her life because she trusts that he will be there to live her life for her....

Biggest Word Ever...

L-O-V-E

So....I was thinkin like how does love work....you love a person right but I mean I have been in love and have actually had sex with someone else knowing that I was very much in love....and at the same time I found out the person I was in love with that was also in love wit me was unfaithful 2....soooo if w love each other....why are we able to do shyt like this??....how does it feel so damn good when you fuckn sumthn but whn you find out that da person u love is doin da same type shyt it hurts and you ready 2 kill sumbody?!...da shyt is crazy 2 me....like how do ppl jus be in love and walk out like nothin even matters nd leave da otha person wonderin like where they went wrong...dat shyt is a puzzle to me and I feel like...how true is love if all of these things can be done when a person is in love?...at da end of a day it got a nigga feelin like FUK LOVE...!!

I wud rather....

I wud rather txt than tlk....
I wud rather laugh den cry....
I wud rather love den hate...
I wud rather drive den walk...
I wud rather drink than smoke....
I wud rather b black den white...
I wud rather break up den cheat...

I feel like...if a person cant be 100% all da way into sumthn den y do it? why pull sum1 into sumthn 2 jus hurt em? sure dey may b hurt by da fact tht they dnt hav you at that point but how much easier is that to deal with than to find out that the person you love is fukn wit sumbody else?...jus thoughts!..i wud rather break up den cheat!...not sayin i wud but cheatin is beyond tlkn 2 another person i dnt wanna cheat a person i care about....cheat them of their time or effort whn im not deserving of either....

Farewell South Beach!!

...soo tonite was mah las nite in Miami!! I must say I had fun for the most part....the beach was fun! We were drunk most of the time we were here!! I was a little disappointed with the nightlife tho!! Clubs was high as fuk and da ones we went to were waaaaaccckkkk!!! Da guhs were beautiful most of em anyway....slept like 12 deep in a 2 bed room every nite whn it was originally 5 niggas!! But its coo cuz I fuk wit dem boys! We slept like 3 hours a nite and ate about 1 meal a day!! But tht was coo too...da liquor was filling...it wasnt really much conflictthe whole time we was hur amongst each otha...but we did see a man get stabbed to death on da strip...shyt was crazy!! But hey da trip was gud...much needed getaway!! Im ready to go home tho!!...bye bye vacation!!

Got Me Walkin On Da Moon.....

And I know it's not just the song (And I know it's not just the song)

And I know it's not just the drink (And I know it's not the drink)

But whatever it might be (Whatever it might be)

Just keep holdin on to me (OOH!)

Cause I'll pull down a cloud for you

I'll circle the stars and bring you one back

I'll walk through the sun for you

Cause there's somethin you do

That got me walkin on the moon (Uhh)

There's something you do That got me walkin on the moon (Uhh)

And I know that it's true baby

You got me walkin on the moon!

{Trill song!! And just reminded me of me!! I'll pull down a cloud fa u!! Its sumthn u do...dat got me wlkn on da moon!! When I told myself I wasnt bout attachments after last time I find myself back in the same situation....I try to stop it...but no matter what I try nd do to detour it....it jus feel like we get closer nd closer!!}

Damn...Can I Afford Dis?!

The place is nice...there is even new furniture already in it...the walls are new and clean...the rooms are big and spacious!! I enjoy myself everytime I step into the place!! It seems like I can always find something new in it that draws me closer!! But its almost so nice that im afraid to kick off mah shoes and get comfortable when I get inside....becuz I dnt know when sumbody else will be comin to try to move in...not sayin that the place likes lots of owners but I feel like if I cant buy it all now someone will...I know that I cant jus keep "testin" da place fa free and I really dnt want 2 but I kno I am in no position to own the place right now...mayb the place knows this too and is ok with it...I am almost sure the place knows this and mayb it feels like I am the one that can one day be the owner and will jus let me rent right now instead of paying for it all at once...hope so!!

This Aint Da Place Fa Me!!....

So...

A relationship is supposed 2 be happy and full of love?...What about when its not? What do you do?....what about when you go from loving one another to simply hating each otha...what do you do? Move on? Nahh it aint dat easy!! I mean it could seem right at first but what about whn you see that person you invested so much time and energy into wit somebody else?...its gon kill u!! So maybe you shud just try n make it work huh?? Nahh....see cuz when you do dat..u find ya self living in something that isnt real....just something that you are trying to make....!! U try and mask the problems that exist by doin things like having sex...but as soon as it is over you are right back to the realization that you are not happy and that your perfect relationship is not real..you arguing all over again....its all just a result of you being afraid to realize whats really real!! And the sooner you do realize and believe the truth.....the more of a favor you will be doing to both of you! Does it have to be the end..no not at all but it isnt fair to eitha one on the ppl if u stay in sumthn that u r not happy in...!!